Hi everyone,
Hope you are all as well as you can be.
Today is Pete's birthday, he would have been 53 years young, he was always young at heart,
we decided as a family to celebrate his life, and had a very special day.
Last year for his birthday, the children bought him an adoption at the Wildlife Heritage Foundation,
which is about 25mins from where we live, they are not open to the public, so it is difficult to get
to see the various big cats that they have there, they only have big cats and they either breed or
retire the cats there, anyway, Pete fell in love with Ranschan, the snow leopard that they have, so that
is who they adopted for him, as an adopter you are able to go to the sanctuary and spend several hours
there walking around and seeing all the cats that they have, as you all know he passed away very suddenly
and never got to do this, so we arranged to do this for him and were able to do it today.
I met my sons and Pete's mum at the church this morning and spent some time at his grave and all laid
flowers and cards, and Jack, our grandson, sang Happy Birthday to him,
then we went to the sanctuary to see his lovely cats, everyone was in awe of them
because you can get quite close and sometimes you are able to stroke them through the bars, amazing,
and we took some lovely photos of them all,when we left there we went to his favourite pub and had dinner
and toasted him for his birthday,there were lots of tears throughout the day, mostly from me, he should
have been here to enjoy it, this all seems so wrong, why did this happen so soon.
Such a beautiful day but such a sad one also, miss him so much, I know he would have been so proud of us
today and it was sad that our daughter could not be part of it but \living so far away, it was not possible, she
took her children to the seaside because that is something special to her as we would often go to the seaside
even in winter, the best time of all. So, although we were not together we all did our special things today for
our very special love.
I am still struggling to get through the days and without the boys I would not have coped at all, hardly slept
last night, because of today, and even though they have changed my tablets for the third time, sleep does
not happen, I feel exhausted all the time, and am very emotional tonight, tomorrow is another day I just have to
get through without him,I so wish I didn't have to. I would give anything to have him back.
Sorry about the sad parts, need to spill them out, would go mad if I didn't, well madder than I am anyway.
Goodnight to you all, hope for a good day tomorrow.
Lots of love
CarolXXXX
